Well, here I sit. That schedule I detailed so clearly is out the window temporarily as my health has shown to me once again that I have to slow down. I wish I knew what was going on, but I know that if I don’t slow down I am overdue for a fall, a blackout or more. So here I am, doing absolutely nothing and I have to admit it’s frustrating. Here’s what I also know. I have learned to listen to my body and when it says to slow down, I listen. If I don’t and I push too hard then I find myself in situations I don’t want to be in. Scary situations where 911 is being called and I am once again in the ER getting no answers. I have to be patient and wait for the neurologist and hope they have the answers.
Does this mean I’m down and out? Absolutely not. I am still well on my way to OMG, I just have to slow it down a bit. There’s nothing wrong about that. There is plenty I can do from right here in this bed to enhance and appreciate my life. This is a lesson I am learning too. That even doing nothing can be something. I plan on lots of reading and finishing some of my advocacy classes today. Maybe find a few psychology class to look into. Anything to keep my brain active as when I’m in this state and confusion starts to set in and I try my hardest to fend it off.
I’m still motivated and excited where this all is headed, but I must admit there is a hint of worry. I don’t know what all this means or if any of my symptoms mean something more serious and that is a bit frightening. I guess I can just hope for the best. There will be another longer post today, I’m just not sure when.